回归意味着什么呢？

还是从未离开？

慢慢找寻答案，不惜一生时间。

I really feel horrific about my present situation of life. My thinking is disordered, I can not think about anything. Something boring fools me everyday. I don't know how to think, how to live. The worst is I don't know how to deal with those mess. Everybody tells me how to do, and nobody can tell me how to do. Everything should be solved by myself. I know. I see. I  can't! That's stupid, ugh? But! I can't. Who knows in which day I can win myself. Everything is pushing me. Sometimes, maybe death can solve all of the problems. At least, I think so. But I can not advise others to choose death. How can I do this? If he really feels bored and discouraged, what I can do is just encourage him. Set an good example for him, so that he can draw courage from me. However, at this moment, I lost my way, I can't distinguish which way I should choose. Someone said, for a woman, road in her life are as many as her hair. Yes, it's true. I chose a road, but now, I am not sure if I should hold on walking. Am I walking? I really don't think so. Walking should have been relaxing and pleasant. But, see my situation, who can say I am relaxed and happy? Who can? Anyway, I can't. Nobody can guide me, nobody. A person can only guide himself, without others. Don't depend on others. Who can give you happiness and peace? I am waiting for a candy life. This is true. The reality is bitter. This is also the fact that makes me sad every day. I want to be released from such a sorrow as soon as possible. My savior is sleeping now, he still doesn't release himself from the darkness. I am expection his arousal. A poet said, Winter is coming, is Spring still far?